I tend to consider myself an amateur Real World scholar. I say “amateur” because I’ve done no actual university study on this subject, but I still say “scholar” because I’ve stopped watching the show as entertainment. At this point, I only watch it in hopes of unlocking the questions that have haunted man since the dawn of civilization. I’ve seen every episode of every season, and I’ve seen them all a minimum of three times. This, of course, is the key to appreciating The Real World (and the rest of MTV’s programming): repetition. To really get it, you have to watch MTV so much that you know things you never tried to remember. You can’t try to deduce the day-to-day habits of Jon Brennan (he was the cowboy dude) from RW 2: Los Angeles. That would be ridiculous. You can’t consciously try to figure out what he likes and what he hates and how he lives; these are things you have to know without trying. You just have to “know” he constantly drinks cherry Kool-Aid. But you can’t try to learn that, because that would make you a weirdo. This kind of knowledge is like a vivid dream you suddenly pull out of the cosmic ether, eight hours after waking up. If someone asks you when Montana from RW 6: Boston exposed her breasts, you just sort of vaguely recall it was on a boat; if someone asks you who the effeminate black guy from Seattle slapped in the face, you inexplicably know it was the chick with Lyme disease. Yet these are not bits of information you actively acquired; these are things picked up the same way you sussed out how to get around on the subway. or the way you figured out how to properly mix Bloody Marys. One day, you just suddenly realize it’s something you know. And–somehow–there’s a cold logic to it. It’s an extension of your own life, even though you never tried to make it that way.
– Chuck Klosterman, Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs
That’s a lot of us in fandom. It’s how I randomly remember that around the time when All About DBSK 2 released, a news article was written about how Hyori loves Yunho’s body best, and I still remember which scene in their variety show she was referring to. It’s why I have a tag for this. Like why I know of the three dramas I’m watching now — Arang, Faith, To the Beautiful You — Faith gets subbed the slowest, will overlap with the day Arang airs, but Beautiful You gets subbed the fastest, so I can probably watch that before Arang is finished. I want to say that these things are magnified with me because I have an obsessive inclination towards detail and a natural tendency to remember, but I like to think pop culture at large trains us to learn things in a totally invasive (but unintentional) way.
I’ve always answered “Fitzgerald” when anybody has asked me who my favorite author is, and it’s mostly out of habit since I started doing so in high school. But when you’re in high school, any answer you have to anything means nothing when you’re an adult :P
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I’ve been thinking a lot about reorganizing and simplifying all aspects of my life, so my summer project is to do a rehaul of all the things I own. It really just comes down to: be a smarter shopper and buy less, but buy better.
With my library, I just simply do not have space to keep buying books. So I remedied that with a Kindle. As a reader though, I find the most interesting reading material while I’m browsing at a bookstore, and not at the Kindle store online, so I’m in a bit of a tough spot. It’s hard to let go of buying books; they exist for a reason. What I’m trying to do is to take down the titles of all the books I want to read and buy them at a later time for my Kindle. Books I have to scribble all over (social science and history books), I buy in hard format. Novels and anthologies, I buy for the Kindle.
I’m taking a super long time to come up with a game plan for simplifying my warddrobe because I’m simultaneously trying to buy high-quality pieces and wrestle with the fact that I’ve been a horrible shopper all these years. I obviously do not have an unlimited budget to buy tons of high-quality pieces all at once, so I’m doing it slowly. Now, couple this with a serious lack of clothes and I’ve got a problem. I am honestly not one of those people with ginormous closets who say “OMG I have no clothes to wear!” Because I’ve been such a bad shopper, all the clothes I’ve gotten in the past have either been in-the-moment purchases or purchases that don’t last/don’t fit well after a couple of washes. So they have all been donated to charity and now I am left with very little weather-appropriate clothing. Ditto for shoes.
My goal is to slowly curate all seasons-appropriate clothing and shoes that will last me a long time, and create a basic warddrobe that I won’t get sick of, and that can be wildly versatile.
To be continued…
The weather is consistently warm, sunny, and gorgeous. I’m lounging around every day basking in it. I’m cleaning, organizing, reading, and enjoying my free time before the eminent job search (and therefore, stress). I’m also spending a lot of mental energy on this blog, energy that is not very visible since most of it is just plotting and deciding.
To be honest, for the last few months, this blog has been suffering through existential crisis. Existential crisis in a blog? I know, how pretentious, right? (What shall we name it? Blogxistential crisis?)
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Nothing substantial to post here except:
SUCK IT, FINALS.
INSANE LEVELS OF STRESS.
PAPERS ALL BURN IN A FIRE.
SCREW PROFS WHO ASSIGN RESEARCH PAPERS ON TOP OF FINAL EXAMS.
Freedom is so close yet so far away.